Ease into it, Kid.

Today something clicked. I'm easing into this new world we’re living it and its great. I like my new job. I like the people I work with. I like our apartment. I'm starting to not mind the subway, still don’t like it. Ive come to realize that my life continues on the weekends and during the week, life isn’t social. Week life is earning the opportunity to live in NYC, my dream city.

I miss my family, immensely. I miss lots of stuff. But, I'm not going to let that stop me from enjoying this great opportunity.

I finally went through the subway during my night commute and enjoyed the jazz band and stopped and got a snack and read my book (Eat, Pray, Love). I’m calm. Theres no rush to get home. Boy isn’t at home when I get home. I have no one to make dinner for but me because Boy has already had dinner by the time he gets home. I would only cook for myself and I'm so tired by the time I get home I just don’t care about eating. A snack is just fine.

Smiley Face...

XoXo,
M

My Biggest Complaint

The commute.

Everyone that I talk to, who doesn't use a subway to get to work, thinks that the subway commute must be the coolest thing ever. I will admit that I too once thought that, that is until I had to use it.

Now week two of the train isn't half as bad as week one because you just get use to it and realize that your options are very limited. We live at the end of the R train, in Brooklyn. We love Bay Ridge and even the R train isn't too bad. But switching trains twice and having to stand for and hour and and 20 minutes kind of stinks. Its not the standing its the amount of time you feel like you're wasting and the lack of things to do while standing.

if I'm seated I have no problem pulling out a book or whatever to help the time pass. But when standing and switching so much you just cant get settled enough for anything.

But then again, this is ONLY week two and it IS getting better. 'Things started going great since I gave up hope!' haha.

I'm liking work a lot more. I started to make friends and I'm getting the hang of it. I found out today that we do get paid time and a half for overtime. Working late never felt so good. Money isn't everything but I have a plan. I want to do something cool every weekend we are in NYC at least for the first year. I will need money for that... and schooling. So... you get the picture. I'm working for the weekends.

Alright... I'm gunna take a bath now. Wash away the day.

XoXo!
M

Almost unpacked

We went out last night and saw a show with a pretty fun group of people. The show was Rain Machine. It was okay. I enjoyed meeting everyone. Very eccentric cats! Actors. They have such big personalities. Very fun.

So we have been in our place for a week. We are nearly unpacked, and it feels amazing to be able to say that! I took some more pictures of the rooms that are basically done. The bedroom isn't yet. Lot of clothes. We have two closets and one is really a half a closet with a few shelves. Boy took the full closet (all his clothes need hung). I am running out of space for my clothes. We need to figure something out.

I'm gunna beg everyone to be patient with me, communication wise. I have been beyond busy with unpacking, working, and trying to figure out my surroundings. I promise to get to everyone. It's only been a week. The first few weeks of a move are so tough. I have some huge adjustments to get through. I'm not avoiding anyone. I want to chat. Please just be patient.

Alright I'm going to post some pictures now and try to finish the unpacking (while boy does laundry). If we can get it all done Boy and I are going to see autumn since its late when we get home.

I <3 NYC FOOOOOOD

Lets update again...


I love NYC food. Seriously, nearly everything is delicious! Hey! Ever notice that Delicious has the word DELI in it? I know why... omg! I cant wait to head Ben/Jesse/Emilys direction for some yummy-ness. I told Boy that those sandwich's beat flowers any day!! Thank God for the treadmill in our place.

So Boy is almost completely unpacked and I still rummage through boxes for clothes. Did I pack too much or am I just being lazy? Maybe a little of both. By the time I get home I am SOOOO tired!! I cant stand it!

My co-workers are getting cooler as the days go on. Since I'm the newbie its tough. But luckily there are quite a few that haven't been there long so I'm in good company.

I feel completely unconnected from the world this week but next week will be better. this weekend I will get a lot done. We only have Internet in one room... the bedroom. Cant complain, its free (and slow).

Hopefully tonight and I can FINALLY sleep through the night... eh

Lots of Love,
XoXo!
M

Working 9 to 6ish... ISH

Ever feel like the only thing you do is work? Me too!

First day at the new job... whats there to say? I hated it. But I went back today and really liked it. I think yesterday I was feeling so homesick for my family. Dad sent me a photo message of Crash (Landon) and I got it while on the subway... I burst into tears and did not stop from Manhattan to Bay Ridge, Brooklyn... in fact I did not stop until about 20 mins after I got home. It was a tough day.

The job was so busy that I didn't get to know anyone I worked with and it seemed like they had noooo personality and it made me lonely. But day two was much much better. I worked with this great girl and she was a lot of fun.

I'm exhausted. Boy is more unpacked than I am! I get up at 6:30am and he wakes up with me and makes me tea while I shower and get ready. He turns on the news and even irons my clothes! Great guy! Feeds the kids (cats)... so sweet. Great Boyfriend! Love him to death! The Best. Even makes me breakfast.

Im very much looking forward to this weekend. Im going to finish unpacking, clean our apartment, and get a mani/pedi!

Kudos to Mom! She got the new job!! Im sooo proud of her! I knew she would!!

Okay, Bedtime.

Lots of Love!
XoXo!
M

Sending Love from Brooklyn!!!

I'm writing you from the pink room known as the bedroom. I'm sitting on the air mattress because Dad and Patti come tomorrow with the truck then the movers are gunna take care of business and i cant tell you how much I'm looking forward to that happening. It's going to be a long weekend for us!!

We're so thankful for the friends and family we have. They are so supportive. Blessed doesn't even begin to cover it!

We are going to make little videos, mainly for Jon(ah)s parents but we will post them for all to see... just us moving in and what not.

I love our bathroom! So far... we only had one box...

Tomorrow I will have more to say. I'm beat! We started our day @ 3am.

Lots of Love from Brooklyn!
XoXo!
M

I'm leaving in a mustang, don't know when I'll be back again

I'm taking a little break from cleaning and finishing touches. It's quiet and I'm left to my thoughts.

Tonight we had a going away dinner. Beth made a delicious meal, the kids were just perfect, and Eddie and I played some Wii. Dad was a little bit of everywhere. It was nice. I wondered why we didn't have a dinner like that once a week. Why it took one of us leaving to break bread with one another, family style. It was perfect and I only cried a little and in front of only one person, Crash {Landon}.

When I picked him up from Eddie and Beth and put him in my car and started to talk to him I realized that we weren't going to have our regular chats about him being such a handsome and happy baby. That I was going to have to make a real effort and so were they. It hurt. But there is always a sacrifice for things that you really want in life.

I changed Kayla one last time, man was it a horrible diaper too, and she just looked at me like she knew. Kayla is so wise, maybe she didn't know at all but I like to believe she did. And Eddie kept telling Kayla to say goodbye to Auntie because you wont see her for a while and by how often Eddie said it I knew that he felt it too. Leaving Eddie is never easy for me. He was my very first best friend and he means the world to me and now his wife is one of my best friends, who I can tell ANYTHING to and never judges me or is disappointed in me and I love her for that.

And then theres Dad. Anyone who knows me knows I'm a Daddy's Girl. My Dad and I are close and when he convinced me to move here I knew that I would be safe. Ive had more than my share of bouts with depression and Ive always run to Dad for them because I knew that he could take care of me when I couldn't take care of myself. He is truly my protector. Leaving him has always been scary.

So now you know what I am leaving behind. This is what I will be missing while living in the concrete jungle. I'm truly a blessed girl to have had 2.5 years here with them. And I cant wait till they come visit me and when i come back to visit them.

So now I take a break and wait for Boy and his parents to show up with their packed van. We'll unload it into the house and then say our goodbyes to them. I fear this will not be easy either. Its going to be a long couple of days for us. This is my calm before the storm.

Well, in much much brighter news, Mom, who has been my biggest cheerleader in this move and just moved herself, just had a big interview! She will find out sometime this week what the verdict is... I know she rocked it. Cant wait to hear the good news.

Back to work. May not be on for a while. Please pray for us.

XoXo,
M

These are a few of my FAVORITE things

I'm writing to you from the only piece of furniture left in the living room while watching Lilo and Stitch with Kayla. It's raining and pretty chilly out. She is trying to learn how to drink out of a straw and is being the sweetest thing. I get the pleasure of watching her while her Daddy {Eddie} and Papa are replacing my car top.

I believe the thing I'm struggling the most with is leaving the Kayla and Crash {Landon}. I have always adored the "grandkids" {my nieces and nephews} but this is the first set that I was of age to have my own. This is the first set that were born when my biological clock was ticking- correction- Kayla started my biological clock.

Before Kayla was born and after The Picture People, I was all done with kids. I didn't want any. Well then when Beth and Eddie got pregnant I was so excited to have a baby around since I live so far from the kids in Erie.

When Kayla was born and I held her in my arms that darn clock started ticking ever so lightly, but it did start. As I watched her grow and spent lots of time with her, babysitting her, playing dress up, taking a million pictures of her my heart warmed up to the thought of having a family and I began planning.

That's right, I changed. My whole world changed. Megan became a planner and maternal and wanted a family and was okay with the thought of marriage. I settled down, wanted a home of my own. Kayla helped me grow up. Then Beth and Eddie announced they were having a little boy...

Crash {Landon} was a different experience for me than Kayla. Kayla helped me to grow up and Crash showed me the responsibility behind having a family. He is the sweetest little guy and I got to experience having a baby around while in a serious relationship. Being able to share that experience with Boy was so special. Now, Crash is very close to me. He's my little guy! All smiles.

Beth calls me 2nd Mommy and I do feel that way with the kids. They mean the world to me. Ive been there for everything.

Leaving them will be the hardest part of this move. Every time I think about it the flood gates open and I'm a wreck. I'm going to miss them so much. I hope they come visit the most and we will be coming back to see them and the rest of the family. I don't want to miss everything with them like I did the rest of the kids.

Kayla and Crash are a few of my favorite things.

I can see the finish line.

Not much to say today. I guess the update is that we have to sign the lease on Friday by noon. Boys parent are dropping him off at 2am {not sure} and we will leave from there to so sign the lease. The office is in Manhattan so we are planning to drive my car to Bay Ridge {Brooklyn} and park then take the subway into the city and hopefully grab a deli sandwich on the way.

Today i have a disaster zone to clean up and finish packing my clothes and scrapbook stuff. I don't feel like doing it but I'm so close to being done with all of this. Really looking forward to the finish line.

XoXo!
M

Bags are {almost} packed and I'm ready to go

Wanted to share the moving pic with you. Believe it or not we STILL have a few more things to pack up but its going in Dads truck. ALMOST READY!!

We played the lotto tonight. Dad said if we win we will ditch the trailer and buy new and let someone else do all the work. haha

XoXo!
M

Two Days and Two Million things to do

I find this to be rather therapeutic so forgive me if I'm blogging more than once a day here. Things are getting to be a little crazy and I'm unbelievably overwhelmed.

I have about two days until I'm on my way up to NYC and I feel like I still have a lot left to do. I'm thinking that I will finish packing everything today and clean all day tomorrow. That way everything is in order when I leave. I will be leaving a lot behind, I think. I'm going to have to find a way to organize and pack that up as well.

Today Eddie is going to come by and we will load all the heavy things into the box trailer. I'm looking forward to this because I will feel like I'm done once I do that. I'm anxious to see how everything fits into the trailer, if it all will. I'm sure it will. I have downgraded quite a bit. I don't want a cluttered apartment. I want a home.

Yesterday we found out that Jonahs parents can't get off work to come up and we are both bummed. They want to so badly but because they just took time off for the last New York trip and this all has been so last minute they cant get the time. Its not gunna be the same with out them. We are really looking forward to their visit.

Good news! I'm getting better!

XoXo!
M

Longest two weeks ever...

Today is Monday and tomorrow will be the two week mark. Two weeks since we found out we were moving. So much has happened in these two weeks.

We have gone through the apartment hunting, finalizing job details, packing our entire lives, telling our parents, preparing to leave our families, looking for furniture, dealing with the apartment people (which we are STILL doing- Amir!), considering the pet situation, getting rid of a lot so that it will fit into our place... you get the idea.

I'm tired and stillllll sick. It's very difficult to be motivated to do all this packing and moving things around when you're not feeling well. I'm getting it done though. I thought it was the moth balls but it turns out the moth balls just made it worse.

I'm a little overwhelmed because we aren't sure which day we are moving yet. I don't know why it bothers me. I would like to leave Thursday morning and clean a bit, maybe pain the living room so its not yellow. But Boys parents are gunna be around I want to be sure that they are comfortable and happy since it will be a rather emotional time for them. I just need to know what to expect, prepare in my mind. This weekend is going to be very overwhelming for us. If you're looking to visit give us a few weekends. I will feel less overwhelmed and be able to enjoy everyone more...

Beth is making a family going away dinner for me on Wednesday. I'm having a hard time thinking about leaving the babies. They mean so much to me and I don't wanna miss them growing up like I have the others. I have to make sacrifices so that i can have what I want in life. Very very tough.

My face itches!

XoXo!
M

Who knew sitting down was so exhausting

Furniture shopping is exhausting. All you do is sit!

I'm so tired. Ive been running since 9:30am and have seen every thrift store, flea market, and discount furniture store in this area. I haven't found anything I love yet. We're going again tomorrow. I wish Ikea was closer... I heart Ikea!

XoXo!
M

We have an address!!

Update:

We got it, we're in!

Ta Da!

XoXo!
M

I didn't start the fire. Oh, THAT fire. Yeah that was me.

Today is THE day. The day we find out about the apartment (well we better or I'm calling them and we're both sure that wouldn't be the best idea). I'm excited. Boy tells me that the guy said we basically have it but I don't know what that means. I only know YES and NO. Today, ah today!

Moving sucks for a lot of reasons. I'm a pack rat. I keep everything because it has some sort of value to me. I swear it might be easier to just set my room on fire than pack it all. If it wasn't attached to Dads house I would be tempted. I am getting rid of a lot of crap. Some of it I hate to part with but what do I do with it!?!? For example, all my My Chem stuff. I love it but theres no room for it. Who do I give it to that will truly enjoy it? Oh, I don't know.

I'm so stoked to move in with Boy. I think living with someone I love is going to be tough. I'm not going to be able to just fly off the handle when something irritates me. I'm going to have to compromise on everything. But if there is ANYONE that I would like to keep my cool for and compromise with its Boy. He's the bees knees, kids. No Joke.

This packing thing is getting old. Dad says that he might not be able to help me move until Saturday now. I can still go up on Thursday and he will just meet us Saturday. He's got a lot of work to do this week making the moving thing difficult. We'll get it. I just hope we have a few days of down time before work.

Money! Where arrrreee you???? Bah! Anyone have money tree seeds? I hate this.

Apparently I'm not sick. I'm allergic to mothballs. This really sucks since after my last move dad poured boxes of them into my stuff. All of my stuff smells of mothballs and its killing me. Okay, that was dramatic. You get it.

XoXo!
M

Will update on the apartment Status!!

One Week

I know this is the 2nd blog in one day but I forgot to mention that the countdown is ON!

One Week until the big move!!! Ahhhh!

Prayers Welcomed.

XoXo!
M

No, seriously, did we get it?

A week from today we are suppose to be moving in to our cute Bay Ridge (New York) apartment, an apartment that we still don't know if we have yet. That's right, last minute and down to the wire per usual. Would I have it any other way? YES.

I'm packing a box trailer with all of my belongs to take to... no where yet. The apartment people, namely Amir and his jerk side kick, have been giving us 'to do' lists as of late. Its my personal opinion they are doing this to buy themselves some more time. But it is rather aggravating as you can imagine. Now we are just waiting for some more paperwork to be completed and turned in, which will be done today, and after that we wait again to see if we got it. It's irritating.

Some good news though, Boy came over last night and spent the night. He dropped off a few packed boxes and spent some quality time with me. It was much needed. As of late we have been so stressed out and in our own heads that we needed a vacation from the move, and we got it. It was fantastic.

I knew moving was expensive but my goodness I had no idea. As many of you might already know I lost my job the first week of September. I qualify for unemployment but I wont be able to receive it until after the fact finding interview and that's not until Oct 22nd. So I have been living on a prayer basically and thankfully loans from the rents. I have a job now but it doesn't start until Oct 19th. Thank God for my family, without them I would be lost and perhaps homeless!?!?

We'll it's pretty much official, I'm sick. I caught something somewhere and when topped with allergies it makes for a very "fun" and "productive" me. I was up all night thinking, coughing, and blowing my nose. Poor Boy.

Maybe a nap is in order. After all, I did promise Boy I would take one.

XoXo!
M

Did we get it?

Today we are waiting to hear back from the apartment people for confirmation on the place and a move in date. Maybe I should be nervous about this but I'm not. I feel like God led me to this and he will get me through it. He's not going to leave me hanging, he never does.

What's on todays agenda? More packing of course! I need to cancel a few memberships around here but other than that I'm in good shape. I would also like to do some research on churches in the area as well as walmarts/targets.

Boy and I discussed the car situation today. Whether or not he will be bringing his car and if I will be bringing mine. I think he decided that he would leave his and I would bring mine. I just cant be without that freedom. If I want to go immediately I like having that option and in Bay Ridge there is room for a car. Now, I know that my car isn't in great shape but I'm crossing my fingers (and toes)and sending up prayers that it will be okay and there wont be any problems that cant be solved with jumper cables.

On my mind today, those delicious bagel sandwiches we had near Ben/Emily/Jesses place. Wowser! Thats what I really want today, a piece of heaven on my tongue.

Oh well, back to packing...

XoXo!
M

We Want To Be A Part Of It!

Since eighth grade, when I made my first trip to New York City, I wanted to be a part of it. There was an energy that could not be contained nor described and I wanted to roll in it. I dreamt of having a Friends apartment and hanging out near the theatres, art museums, and coffee shops.

As this dream progressed I started to realize that my ideal job would be a makeup artist, in where else but Broadway. It was all I could think about, creating characters and being a part of live masterpieces. Mandy and I went to New York to check out MUD, a makeup design school, for my birthday a few years ago. It was incredible and I was in love. In love with a lifestyle, an idea, a city. THE CITY.

There were days that I would wake up and long to be in NYC. My heart has been in the city for years. Some nights I would come home from work or school and put in a movie that was based in NYC just to pretend I was there. In the mornings that I have time, I watch the Today Show to see what the weather is like in the city that day.

My desire for the city was so strong that I felt like maybe the man God made for me lived there since my heart was obviously there already. I eventually met someone who loved NYC just as much I did and we became friends. This fantastic gentleman and I would constantly talk about how wonderful the city was and his experiences growing up there.

For nearly 5 years this was the one common ground that he and I had. We would dream of how beautiful the city is in the fall and how we both thought we should visit the NYC someday in October so that we could enjoy the colors and crisp scent of autumn. Ironically, this gentleman and I fell in love and are moving to our favorite city to collect our hearts, In October.

I'm making this blog to keep anyone who is interested updated in my NYC adventures and life. Enjoy, I will be.

XoXo!
M