Sunday, November 27, 2011


The last day of twenty eight. Running into the last year that I will be a twenty-something. I had a list of thirty things to do before 30 but I lost the list during one of 8 moves I made in the last 10 years. I know that I accomplished a few things on that list and there are some things that I doubt I will be able to do. But, I think I would like to make a few goals for this last year and see where I end up next year at this time.

If you haven’t gathered, I’m a goal maker. I’ve always been interested in making goals for myself. I believe you should always be working towards something to promote personal growth. The goal doesn’t have to be big, it can be something as simple as using better vocabulary words. But even the smallest of goals will push you each day. We weren’t put here to just survive.

This year I would like to learn sign language. This is something I have wanted to do for a long time. I’ve always thought it would be neat to know. You never know when it will come in handy and plus if Jonah learns it too we will have our own language since it’s not common among our friends and family.

I would also like to learn Bangla. My husband is Bengali and when we are around his family that is what they speak. When they speak to me they speak English but they speak Bangla all other times. So at the table or at parties I have no idea what their saying. It can be pretty lonely at times. I need to learn so I can participate. Also I will be able to teach my children Bangla.

I would like to continue to lose weight. Next year at this time I would like to be down 50 lbs. Health is so important and I believe that my chances of staying healthy will increase dramatically if I can shed the extra weight. This will also help with one of my goals in my thirties which will be to have a baby.

I would like to take a class for credit to further my education. This probably won’t happen until the end of the year due to financial resources but it will be a goal of mine that I hope to say I’m closer to accomplishing next year at this time.

Last but not least, we need to start saving money. This is a big one. We are in a tight situation which doesn’t allow any money to be put away. Even before our current situation money was tight. We need to be able to save at least three months salaries, just in case. If we had an opportunity to do this before than we wouldn’t be so worried right now. Things are going to get worse before they get better. The economy has not been the kindest to most and we are included in this. Save money. I don’t know how we will do this one. All other goals have been easier to accomplish. This might include me taking a weekend job for a while. Nights aren’t possible for me, I get out so late. If I could do the weekend thing for about 6 months I think we would have a good start.

I’m really not sure how we will pull off our honeymoon at this point. I’ve heard of people who plan it later and never go. I don’t want that to be us but with money the way it is, it’s not looking promising. The money we got for our wedding had to go towards bills unfortunately. Maybe we will have to downscale our honeymoon. Whatever we do will be great, we just want to vacation together, alone.

Now that you see I have a lot to work towards, help me. Make sure you encourage me and remind me what I need to do to accomplish my goals. Once I post this I will have put it out into the world and I will owe it to myself, and you, to work my hardest.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

They're sick and our hearts are breaking

There is no gift more precious than a baby. We had three this weekend. However when they are sick its hard to really enjoy the incredible moments.

At first it was just the boys with their ear infections. Ear infections are very common in our family. When Eddie and I were kids we consistently got them after our colds. Even today I get them and have no idea I have them. I sometimes will go in for a physical and when they look in my ears, after making the usual comment about all the scar tissue, they will tell me that I have one and does it hurt. Sometimes I have no idea. However the really bad ones, well let’s just say those are the days I beg God to take me early.

The tough part is babies cant communicate the pain like kids can. Kayla coughed and told me it hurts when she coughs. Okay, shes sick and now I know what to do to help her. The boys, well they are too little to tell me and obviously they are holding their ears because they are infected. But its tough with sick babies.

Kayla woke up last night crying and crying. When I picked her up to cuddle her, I thought she had a bad dream, she was hot to the touch. Kayla was not warm but hot. Even her little piggies (toes) were hot. We took her tempature and she was running 102.2. Ouch. Its 3am and we have one sick little princess on our hands. So Uncle Jonah ran to the 24 hour pharmacy on the corner, thank God, and got her some Pedia Care. They were out of baby Tylenol. Seriously? OUT??? Anyway, it worked. I cuddled her to sleep and held her tight as she slept it off.

The boys had fevers throughout the day but they had prescribed meds for their infections. They wanted to be cuddled and loved the entire time, which I loved. But my heart broke for the little guys. They just weren’t feelin’ it. We should have had them stay home this weekend. They should have been resting. I guess we all didn’t know they would get worse this weekend. Lesson learned. It felt nice to love them when they were sick and it hurt too. Im exhausted and my head did not stop pounding.

Jonah quit his job. Turns out it was a form of pyramid scheme. Why can’t people be more honest? Why can’t they just come clean and say hey this is what it is, if you wanna be a part of it let me know, if not there’s the door. At that time, before wasting all of his time and not getting paid for it he could have made his grand exit. So, back to the drawing board for my artist. We are really hoping he will find something in his field, broadcast, film, writing,music, entertainment. What a tough field, eh?

Overall a rewarding and exhausting weekend. No sure how Beth, Ed, and Daddy-O do it. Hard job to love so much and run after them. Miss them already and praying that they will get better before Thanksgiving when we see them again.
p.s. So, you know how Jonahs middle name is Scissors? Maybe I should change mine to “Rock” that way I can win every argument by default. Your thoughts? I can do it Friday when I go get my name legally changed. Haha (It’s a joke… unless we are arguing that day and then it will happen)

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Watch out Hollywood...

Nebraska called me the other day and asked that Jonah rock my world a little more gently, their feelin’ quakes. (My attempts at a goofy bad joke). I am very proud of my husband. He is doing such a fantastic job in his new job. Even though im not a huge fan of his new job, for a lot of reasons, he is doing a great job there. He works very hard for us and I really appreciate it. Not only that but a film he wrote the soundtrack for made it into a film festival, “White Rice”. He is so very talented and Im very blessed to be a part of his life.

We went to the screening this weekend in NYC. We had a really nice time. It was in the Tribeca Theatre and the showing was at 4:20pm. We took the bus, per usual, but this time there was no inappropriate groping, at least not by a stranger. My husband on the other hand can always be counted on to sneak a grab when he gets a chance.

The viewing was great. There were several friends that showed up for support. There were several short films shown at the same time. Ben said a few things at the end giving Jonah a shout out which was cool. It was nice. There was a cool lounge at the Cinema that we hung out in afterward and then off to Chinatown for dinner for some white rice. Fitting right? We didn’t stay the night because it was just too expensive being that the NYC marathon was this weekend.

So its official, the darn clock is ticking, ever so lightly. I have been having dreams about having a baby or holding a baby or having a sleeping baby in my arm. We are hoping to wait a few years before jumping into the big responsibility. I really think a decision like that needs to be taken seriously. Life will never be same again. You will never be able to just get up and go or sleep in on the weekends.

There is a whole new definition of “clean” for your home. We clean our house but with a baby around clean is sterile. Boiling bottles and making baby food. Eating differently for the breastfeeding. Free time will be different. Drinking too much isn’t okay when you have the responsibilities of the baby. There is a girl in the news now who has no idea what happened with her child because she drank too much. Its considered abuse. You wont be able to do this for a really long time. Not that drinking means that much to me. Ha! But its something that I do now that will need to change.

Bringing a baby in to your home is big and should not be gone into lightly. Now if God blesses us with a baby before we planned we will be thrilled to pieces! I believe every new parent should be required to take parenting classes before being able to take the baby home and take a test showing that you paid attention. Why? Because its not always a natural instinct like they say it is. There are things that you are told by friends and family that is incorrect. Bad advice. Your family deserves better than that. Being informed is key. Any parent that says they don’t need it is crazy. Whats the harm in being informed?

I have made some goals for myself before we start trying. I want to be at a healthy weight to carry a baby. I want to develop a healthy diet plan as well so that the baby gets all the nutrients it needs to develop. I want to take a few child development classes. I have taken a lot in college but it will be good to review and learn more. I want to take another big trip besides our honeymoon. I don’t know where yet but somewhere romantic and adventurous. I want to buy a home. We have a two bedroom now but I would like at least a 3 bedroom. I want to develop a nice little nest egg, want to be comfortable.

Its very possible none of the goals I have set will happen and we could have a surprise next month! Haha! But Im a list and goal maker. I would like to develop myself and us before bringing in a child. So until then I will continue to take the babies (Kayla, Landon, and Luke) and learn as much as I can from them. I take this seriously because if you mess up raising your children you cant take it back. That child will one day be an adult and that will be their past. They will one day be a parent and they will raise their child with their childhood in mind. Its so very important. Raising your children is most important job in the whole world.

Anway, its Sunday and we both have to work. Kinda stinks. But money is tight now so I cant imagine not having a job so I will work whatever day I need to so I can keep up with my work load.