Thursday, June 26, 2014

Monday, January 6, 2014

A time for love...

For this blog I will post some pictures that I haven't posted yet in the interest of save them off of my phone.

 Luke celebrates the big THREE!!
 Luke is wishing for toys and Mommy is wishing for patience!
 Eddie with Kayla, Landon, and Luke.
 Rich and Sir Costalot (Costa)
 Kayla and Landon go Pumpkin hunting
 All three pumpkinteers
 The beautiful Princess Kayla.
 Loving Landon with his giant pumpkin
 Corn maze with the boys
 Pumpkin on a stick
 Look at these three angels!
 My handsome Husband city livin'

There is a beautiful little girl that I have come to know and love. She has cancer. There is this great nonprofit organization that will paint shoes for children that struggle with cancer and other unfortunate diseases. These are the ones that I ordered for little Olivia. Peaches Neet Feet are great. Go Team Olivia!!

 I never get tired of water shots. I feel most at peace when watching the water.
I love how calm this one is. It looks like a painting.

Life in Siberia .. er I mean Chicago

I have moved right back into lake effect snow and I couldnt be more disgusted with myself about it. We absolutely adore Chicago in every condition that is not snowy. I could write an entire blog about how much I detest it. But instead I will tell you what we do to keep ourselves entertained...

Right now I am watching my husband pace back and forth and play his guitar, 90's songs tonight. He started with some Fuel and we just went from there. When he does this I always stop dead in my tracks. It always pulls at my heart strings and I am in awe of how lucky I am.

We watch a lot of movies. This weekend we downloaded some new movies. I wont share the names as I dont want us to get in trouble or judged for downloading movies but the two that we saw were pretty darn good. Even when we dont download them we have Netflix. We watched Guilt Trip on New Years and really enjoyed it.

 This has been an awfully stressful last few weeks for us. Not because of the holidays but because I came down with the flu on Christmas Eve and it lasted a little over a week. I was down for both Christmas and New Years. On Monday, the 30th, we said goodbye to our beautiful Muffy. She was a valued member of the Quiah family for 13 years and her loss was devastating.

Well, on to watching the snow fall more. Tomorrow, with the windchill, we will be drudging to work in -40 weather. Yes, you read that right. I am so disappointed that the expectation is for people to leave their homes in this weather. Not that our home is super warm and cozy- we have a radiator that we cant control. We have these big beautiful windows that are drafty. Thankfully, we have a heated blanket.

Okay, enough with the winter complaints. My next move will be warmer than this.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Autumn is good for my soul.

One hundred posts? Pretty impressive, especially for someone who doesn't generally consistently stick with anything.

Autumn is coming and it's my very favorite season. Jonah put some of my music on my iPhone (yeah still bored with that process) and it has really taken me back. It has been good for my soul to listen to my favorite albums. I also got my paws on a big beautiful cup of Pumpkin Spice Latte. I took a big whiff of it first before tasting it. It took me back to this one particular memory.

I was 22 or 23 and I lived on Walker Ave in Greensboro, North Carolina. I was staying in a house I affectionately call, The Dungeon. The Dungeon had very few windows and I lived there during some of my darkest days. Down the street from that house was a park that I held dear to my heart. I would frequently go to this park on my free afternoons with my camera. I would just walk around all afternoon and think through my problems.

One rainy afternoon, in the fall, I grabbed a venti Pumpkin Spice Latte and went to the park. I was wearing this giant cable-knit sweater that felt like a hug. The moist brisk air smelled like high school football and my time in the marching band. I didn't take many pictures that afternoon but just soaked up my surroundings. It was perfect. I wasn't lonely for one minute that day which was a real treat. That was one of my favorite days ever.

That whiff of Pumpkin Spice Latte, a few days ago, brought me right back to that day.

Autumn is good for my soul. It stirs me up and pushes me to express myself. It's coming.


Tuesday, September 3, 2013

The last few months have been a little windy...

Lots has happened since last December. The biggest thing is that we moved to Chicago.

Initially, I was not excited about the move. It was my promotion that led to the transfer but we were living in a beautiful little townhouse with rose bushes, a fenced in backyard, 3 bedrooms. We painted and decorated. We had ourselves a little love nest on the outskirts of DC. When I told Jonah about the news he was so excited. He missed city livin'. I couldn't possibly believe that I would like Chicago more than New York.

A few weeks after we moved I had to travel back to New York for work and I stayed for a week and a half. What an eye opener. I love NYC and I always will. There is an energy there that is indescribable. BUT... Chicago is awesome. I love how clean this city is. I love the beaches. The people are pretty awesome. My office is sweet. My apartment, although expensive, is quite charming. We really like Chicago. Keep in mind, we have only been here a few months and have not seen winter yet. Thus far, a big thumbs up from us.

Could this be our forever home? Maybe! Probably not (snow) but it is definitely a real possibility. 

Us keeping things goofy

One of my favorite post Chicago pics of the cats. Tea time!

A first attempt at decorating
Couldn't love this rug more if I tried
I frequent the Farmers Markets where I find my favorite, Peonies!
We love the beach- 2 blocks from our apartment

Love lake livin'

Started to grow veggies in the back

Fireworks at the beach
I should get back to this blogging thing. I kinda missed it.


Saturday, December 1, 2012

One door closes and a new one opens

Whelp, I'm thirty years old.

To be honest, if you asked me a few years ago I was fairly disappointed that this milestone was coming up however now that its come its refreshing.

My twenties were heartbreaking and fun. I learned a lot about life, love, faith, and self-worth. Up until 26 it was rough. I struggled with a horrible depression and had a terrible time getting back on track. Twenty-six is when I was steered in a different direction. I genuinely get to enter my thirties happy. I feel like I have overcome and acomplished more than I imagined I would. I feel successful at work and happy at home.

Of course, I must celebrate the new chapter in my life with a to do list. If I'm not making a list I don't feel like I'm achieving. Ive come up with a few adventures and goals that I would like to try in my thirties. I will share the list here so that I dont lose it like I lost the last one.

Things to do in my Thirties:

Go hot air ballooning.
Grow a veggie garden
Learn how to and make a quilt.
Finish Kayla, Landon, and Lucas Baby Scrapbook and make it a regular thing again
Have a baby
Learn to knit and knit a baby blanket
Have a romantic picnic on the Mall in DC
Run a 5k
Take a surfing lesson

Start my own business on the side
Take a beginners Italian class
Pay off my debt
Get my license back
Get in shape
Buy a house
Drive route 66
Sky Dive

Watch a meteor shower
Go to Paris
Go to Venice again, this time with my Husband
Build a nest egg
Drive across the country
Buy a car
Stop feeling guilty

Send cards
Learn how to play BlackJack and play at a casino
Purchase my dream camera and get back into photography
Stay at a 5 star hotel
Go on an all inclusive vacation

That's where I stand right now. We'll see how far I get and I may add more or take some away. This is my list. 

You may be wondering what I did on my birthday this year. Well, we were suppose to be in in Florida but that didnt work out for us this time around. We decided to go see the family in Erie. Now that the children are there and I cant see them as often I miss them like crazy. I went to a day spa called Panache. It was awesome. I got the luxury package and was pampered all day long. I even got my anti-aging facial. I will post an after photo. I think it worked. 

After the spa we went to see my brothers band and found that they threw a surprise party. We had a lot of fun. I posted some photos on Facebook. The last time I celebrated with my family I was 21 and it was just as crazy this time around only this time I didn't drink nearly as much but had a blast regardless. 

My beautiful husband did a great job making the day really special. Despite the hatred I have for my birthday he did a fantastic job making it wonderful. 

I'm thirty, and for the first time in my life I can honestly say I'm at a good place. I wouldn't change a thing.



Monday, October 22, 2012

Big Fish

 Legacy is a factor that many use when making decisions. Some may be misguided but regardless everyone wants to leave something behind. I am no exception.

In my early twenties I went through a pretty dark stage. I was horribly depressed suffering from a broken heart and this ridiculous phase lasted a few years. During this time I saw a music video that had me change the course I was steering my ship. It was a My Chemical Romance music video for Helena. It was funeral. The music was emotional and there was this look in the singers eyes at the end of the video, it was the best way to describe how I felt on the inside. I was hooked.

For the next couple of years I found myself in different cities all over the US and Canada catching their show and trying to meet the band. I dragged friends and family to the show and had one hell of a time doing it. Up until this point in my life I felt so boring. I was so focused on pleasing everyone that I forgot to figure out who I was and what I wanted. This adventure made me feel alive and pulled me through the depression. Eventually the goal, meeting the band, became more than just 'meeting the band'. I wanted to know what I could accomplish, if I could actually meet this popular rock band. I thought, wow, someday this will make a cool story to tell my kids (legacy).

It took years. I started in 2005. I went to Warped Tour in Virginia Beach with my brother Eddie and sister in law Beth. I met up with a roadie I knew  and he walked me back stage one time. After that the security thought that I belonged backstage. I went back and met Fall Out Boy, I mistook them for roadies. I waited until Beth and Eddie met me back there, apparently security was very relaxed, and we met Frank. Beth and I took a picture with him. I was hooked. I now knew I could get this far, time to go big.

Highlights; 15 shows, backstage few times, took my mom to a show and while waiting out back the police were called on Mom and I, Kelly got me into the dressing room where I proceeded to take items including a perfectly good salad meant for Gerard, Kelly and I ate that salad for breakfast in the morning, Beth took her first flight with me to go to a show in a snow storm, I met Mandy in Vegas for a show and then we drove the desert for another, I won meet and greet tickets on the radio and gave them to my brother for his birthday (They were for Blink 182 and I have gotten him Blink tickets for years for his bday) and couldn't go so my Fiance (now husband) met the entire band all at once instead of me meeting each on at different time ( I had met everyone but Gerard, the Big Fish). Then lastly, Comic Con in New York.

Let me just say, my friends and family were awesome through it all. Dad was a little disturbed and Mom was constantly worried I would become a groupie and I loved keeping them on their toes.

Let me elaborate on the last highlight I mentioned, Comic Con New York. This year I bought my husband tickets to Comic Con for his 26th birthday. Twenty-six was a lucky year for me and for many other I know so I wanted to make it special for him. We were lacking sleep and I was sick when we arrived. I was trying to look cool and nerdy and YOUNG. I will be 30 this year and I wanted to go to this thing and sort of blend in. I did my hair and makeup. I wore my skull shirt, band hoodie, jeans, tutu, chucks, and pink highlights for my hair. But I kept looking at my face and thinking something is off. What is wrong with my makeup? I look old and tired.

We didnt let me feeling old and tired (and sick) stop us from exhausting ourselves even more. We had a great time. My husband is into it all. We explored comic books, art, costumes, movies, video games, anime, etc. The one thing we were going to attend for me was a signing with Gerard Way. I was looking forward to it and was also feeling self conscious. I was hoping to get a picture with him this time around and I knew I looked old and tired and would hate the way I looked in this picture but couldn't pass up the opportunity. The Big Fish.

Due to unorganized staff at the event I did not get to participate in the signing. But I did get to stand right in front of the table and watch/take a million pictures. I stood among all teenage girls and a few of their parents. I felt ridiculous. My husband is standing behind me and was happy to wait with me, even though he knew I would swoon over my crush.

He comes out. All the girls are crying, yes I said CRYING. Not me (for the record I have never cried over this band or any member of it). I was in awe. This guy represented a portion of my youth. I would normally be over the moon for this opportunity but it hit me like a ton of bricks, my Big Fish got old and tired just like me. Im too tired to chase and he looks to old to run. I laughed and thought, this is ironic. On the day that I feel so badly about the loss of my youth my Big Fish also lost his. The score was tied. I took my millions of pictures and looked at him like he was an old friend. I walked away that day, not bummed at all, but thrilled that I had each and every one of those experiences and mostly for this most recent one.

It's funny, I would have never imagined that this adventure would have meant so much to me. I hope my kids never attempt this. If my parents knew the details they would have never slept again. Makin' 'em proud... ha!

Anyway, we just celebrated our one year wedding anniversary!!! Plus as of this month we are working on starting a family. Stay posted.