Thursday, January 19, 2012

Nightly night caps

I remember when I started college (wow, 11 years ago!?) and I was sitting in psychology class when my teacher, whose voice was entirely too therapeutic, asked ‘what’s the difference between someone who binge drinks every weekend to the point they black out and someone who insists they need a drink nightly to unwind from their stressful job?’. Well looking back perhaps she was being ironic. Generally, you start with the one and move on to the next. Which stage of life are you in? Night caps. Ah.
Yes, I am in night caps. Im not as conflicted as I was when sitting in that class. When I thought about the two I felt most bad for the person who needed the nightly drink because their job was so stressful. I thought how could that be? What kind of stress is that and what do you mean “unwind?” Well I certainly wouldn’t say that I “need” a drink nightly. But my job is very draining and I find myself laying in bed at night trying to find ways to increase morale- hell, “Morale” was my password at work for a while so that I wouldn’t forget the goal.

Its easy to sell a start up company to kids. You say things like, “they are open to new ideas and really listen to their people,” and “ You’re paving the way to something great!”. Sadly, young people and their lack of worldly beatings and the their beautiful dreams are easy to manipulate. Its not the goal it just turns out young people are the only ones crazy enough to take on this insane task for the amount of money I can pay. But, you get what you pay for.
A glass of wine does wonders for MY morale. I enjoy being able to sit back with my groom and sip a glass wine. We always make a toast and then I just get comfortable as our bedtime approaches. I stop thinking about the insulting things that have been said to me at work, or all the reports that aren’t as clean as I’d like, or how to approach an employee who needs discipline. I just enjoy my surroundings. On the weekends its not an issue.
Now is the time for me to endure the stress and night caps life. Focusing on career is normal for this period of my life. Or maybe Im just justifying my love for my night caps.
Let me just add, Ive had quite a night cap already...

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Twenty Twelve, Im coming for YOU!

Welp, I know your dying to find out our thoughts on 2011 and our goals for 2012 (haha, thanks for humoring me).
Coming to you, a little after midnight, on January 1st 2012 is ME! Megan! Why am I not out at some dive bar with my husband listening to live music enjoying a low carb beer? Well because some irresponsible loon decided to leave their home while sick which in turn got me and my husband sick. I say this very light-heartedly because if you know me you know it KILLS me to call out sick. I attend work with the flu and use Lysol as perfume on those days. I just need to be “in the know” (that’s my way of avoiding admitting that Im a bit of a control freak). So anyway we are sick. When I say sick I mean disgusting.
Now, don’t think I just sat here on this incredibly comfortable couch all day! I tortured myself by heading to walmart, toys-r-us, and the Mall (Yes, I heard the shocking screams from you on that last one). That was after we took Jonah to his doctor to get more meds for his sinus infection that hasn’t left his side since Thanksgiving (at least its consistent). I tried to weasel my way into his doctor but they don’t take my insurance and I cant stomach paying $140 when I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday.
Yes, we did a bit of shopping today because we will be seeing family for a New Years party tonight. We shopped for two teenage girls and to be honest I loved it. The one loves Hot Topic and you all know how much I love that store! The other is a pre-teen. When she and I were watching TV we saw a commercial for a disgusting toy that makes edible “brains” and “snot” and nastiness! Very fun young ladies. I love those girls. So of course we had to run out and get their gifts! I put on a brave face, put on my big girl panties and got my shopping done. As cranky as I felt it will be worth the look on their face when they realize that someone besides their parents “know” them and listen to them. So important.
On a side note which is related to the last thought but not related to this blog post (welcome to my brain which has a ping pong ball bouncing from one idea to another), it makes me so sad when people that I work with or know personally notice my nose ring suddenly. They say, “when did you get your nose pierced?” in which I reply, “ about 5 years ago and yes I wear it daily”. Have you honestly never looked at me? I mean, I know Im no model but really? I work beside you and you have spoken to me a million times and you never really looked at me? Im invisible? Sad. Anyway… moving on to the point of this blog…
New Years! Well I decided that we will make a New Years tradition. It has something to do with a candle and symbolically lighting it. Im going to tell Jonah about it later. Haha! Poor guy. We made some lists. Things we wanted to forget about 2011 and things we wanted to remember. Then we made our personal goals for the new year and our relationship/ “we” goals.
To touch on what we wanted to remember, we had a decent year! We got married this year! We moved to DC (meaning we survived NYC), I got promoted, Jonah got a better job, we got to see our families more, better apartment, healthier life. Jonah and his production company had a film make it to the film festival, “White Rice”.
We had some tough spots too. There was a huge argument the night before the wedding. All the stress had finally got to “us”. We don’t argue much so for two people who don’t do it and aren’t good at it it was intense. Wasn’t sure how to tell all the out of towners it wasn’t going down but party on! Thank God we found our heads and felt our hearts. We both saw our companies for who they were and felt disrespected by them. I walked away from a friendship. Money was tight. Our families struggled financially this past year. The bridal shower fiasco (someday I will talk about that but today is not that day).
We had our typical goals; weigh tloss, read more, learn sign language, career goals, promotion goals, etc. The ones Im most excited about are; getting out more and making babies next holiday season.
We ended our night a beautiful toast (peach wine of course) among laughter, kisses, cuddles, and promises (you have my permission to vomit now).
To you, whoever you are, we sincerely wish you a very happy and healthy 2012! May you live the live you want and have the things you need. I pray for peace, health, and wealth to you and yours!
With Love,